I’ve decided to start republishing my articles here so I have a copy in my own blog. Also, so maybe they’ll actually be read. This article was originally published in Rending the Veil in December 2006. Michael Jackson was alive and well. There is no disrespect intended with use of his name here, either then Continue reading →
Chat Log: Donald Tyson and Meridjet re: Free Will
8 February 2009 By 3 Comments
November 2003 — This is a chat log between Meridjet and Donald Tyson from 5 years ago; it’s amazing to think that much time has gone by! They start out discussing Don’s idea regarding spirits helping psychiatrists with subconscious work, and progress into a theological discussion about angels and whether or not they have free Continue reading →
A Break, For a Dream
30 December 2008 By 4 Comments
My birds were being so loud for so long that I had to take an Ativan. Sheesh. Now I have headphones on so as to gain some control over what noise I’m exposed to. It reminded me of my dream this morning. The dream seemed important so I want to make a record of it. Continue reading →
Something Weird
26 October 2008 By 4 Comments
For several months, I’ve been seeing far more than the usual number of shadowy movements seen from the corner of my eye. They are growing in realism and frequency, and in the past two days I’ve seen at least a dozen out of the corner of my left eye (none from my right in that Continue reading →
Angels? Or Something
23 August 2008 By 1 Comment
I’m looking at the next post in the archives (moving from most distant past, forward) of my old LiveJournal and it’s a post from 2003 regarding an angelic visitation in 1999. I was doing daily LBRP and other rituals at that time, and so was accustomed to seeing manifestations of the four archangels from that Continue reading →
Personal Growth Discussion
29 May 2008 By Leave a Comment
I was having a chat with a long-lost, rediscovered friend today that resulted in some stuff I wanted to save. Skim if you like, but I recommend reading. We were discussing qabala, and I found some quotes… Sheta: “The word nephesh (soul) designates the lower self in the time of sleep, whilst the term ‘ruach’ Continue reading →
Meridjet and Lying, or Moral Ambiguity for a Cause
11 May 2008 By Leave a Comment
In an archival post from the old, defunct LiveJournal, dated 24 October 2003, I quoted an email regarding his ability to lie. My ideas have changed since then, but I am gonna go ahead and give you the old perspective first. The email text in italics, then the body of the post:
He doesn’t seem able to lie directly, but he isn’t inclined to tell me more than he has to, either.
This is typical from what I’ve seen. Now grok this: If you ask, “Is your name John Smith?” he can say yes and it’s somehow not the same as him flat out saying, “My name is John Smith.” I’ve been thinking about the fact that they [spirits] supposedly can’t lie but they can let you believe what you need
Soulbonds
1 April 2008 By 2 Comments
Today I took part in a discussion in the LiveJournal community, Non-Wiccan Witch, and the topic of soulbonds came up in context. Someone asked me to explain what a soulbond is, and this is my reply. I’m going to use it as the definition in the glossary on this site, more or less:
Speaking as a person who’s never had a soulbond, I’ll do my best. A soulbond is the animation of a fictional character, either outsourced (written by someone else, such as Tolkien>Legolas) or insourced (made up by oneself for a story or series). The animation, which could be likened to a servitor or the manifestation of an individual’s view of an egregore (at least in some cases, if not all), takes on a life of its own
Archival Post – “Negs”
28 March 2008 By Leave a Comment
In this post from 1 October 2003, I describe an encounter with an entity of the sort I call “Negs,” which is short for “negative entities.” I started calling them that in 1999 upon Meridjet’s return, which is when I first knowingly encountered them. A Neg is a less-evolved spirit that mimics the spirit companion flawlessly (typically with permission, so as to teach discernment) and then, at just the right moment, says or does something out of character for the SC – something hurtful or shocking. The goal is to inspire a strong emotional reaction in the human partner, which the Neg then feeds upon. You can see more about spirits feeding on energy on this page. The encounter described below is fairly simplistic, but a majority of
Sex and Memories
13 February 2008 By Leave a Comment
In a post from 21 August 2003, I was listing things from even further in the past that I had been discussing with Don in chat. A bullet list, as it was posted:
- One time during sex, Meridjet and I spontaneously switched genders. I could physically feel the change in my body and the experience of sex as a male. It went on for a few minutes, and I consciously chose to return to normal, and then tried to switch again but was unable. Should have waited for the orgasm… Don speculates that we were so close, we occupied the same space, or something.
- Meridjet does good healing. He used to take me into past abuses, sexual ones, and we’d ‘relive’ it mentally, while he replayed the part of
Dream Concepts: Ever Wonder Where They Come From?
1 February 2008 By Leave a Comment
I am going through the old archives again right now, trying to get some additional material into this blog. I found an interesting dream post, dated 11 August 2003. (I started at the beginning of the archives, which began November of 2002 and remain very sporadic, still, in 2003.) The “Don” in the post is occult author Donald Tyson, who’s a good friend of ours. The post reads:
“Yesterday I wasn’t really having much in the way of contact, but at one point I perceived him standing behind me, playing with my hair. Later as I was chatting with Don, I got kind of achy for Meridjet. This happens when I am without substantial contact for a few days. I said something to Don about being mopey. Last couple of
