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Two issues have arisen this past week to gain new levels of priority, impelled by that all too familiar feeling of “Processing.” One came to light incrementally — a long-standing issue that has become impossible to ignore. It’s in the way of my personal growth, now, and while I’m not sure how I’m going to Continue reading →
Okay, sorry for the delay. Here’s the archive of my radio show — the first segment; there will be more to follow at some point. Be advised, this is a 29 megabyte file, so adjust accordingly. Link to Sheta’s Paranormal Noise radio interview. Click to play, or right click and “save target as.” You can Continue reading →
I was reading Wikipedia a bit ago, about schema therapy. There was a link at the bottom to their page on Cognitive Dissonance, in which I found this gem: Most of the research on cognitive dissonance takes the form of “induced compliance without sufficient justification.” In these studies, participants are asked to write an essay Continue reading →
Random memory time. A few years back on LiveJournal, I was a member of several sexuality communities ranging from “Fem Submissives” (which I owned for a short stint when it was passed to me, before I ultimately passed it on to someone else) and other kink communities to “Sex Tips,” which I helped out on Continue reading →
A friend of mine on LiveJournal posted a list, with photos, of men she’d “have lots and lots of sex with.” I thought I’d gank her idea and provide a list here, if I can come up with one. In no particular order, then, I give you my list of Hot To Sheta famous (and Continue reading →
My birds were being so loud for so long that I had to take an Ativan. Sheesh. Now I have headphones on so as to gain some control over what noise I’m exposed to. It reminded me of my dream this morning. The dream seemed important so I want to make a record of it. Continue reading →
This post is from November 2, 2003 (the one I just posted was from October of 2003, but the events themselves were four years prior). I’m going to bed in a minute but wanted to leave one more Meridjet-related story before I went. I’m trying to sleep forward; sleep deprivation backfires and makes me manic, Continue reading →
The tropical storm known as Edouard (that’s not a typo) is hovering off the coast of Texas/Louisiana in the Gulf of Mexico and is due to hit here tomorrow. And when I say, “here,” I do mean here. Observe: That star is the location of my house. Though Edouard (I guess that sounds like “Edward,” Continue reading →
For documentation purposes, I need to post about a recent event, though there’s only so much I want to post publicly. I’m looking into a way to filter some posts to registered users of this site, but for now I will only give a sketchy description and it will have to do. A couple of weeks ago, Meridjet encouraged me to go out on a limb in a situation I was having trouble with. He told me that if I would trust him and “do what you need to do,” that it would resolve itself within a few days. He gave a specific day, Wednesday, and of course I took it to mean the following Wednesday. He also said that holding on to a situation too tightly out of
As promised, I’m posting some archival stuff since InsaneJournal is loading (albeit slowly). I’m going to put in a few excerpts in an attempt to create a progression because it’s been a while since my last set of archival posts.
From 13 October 2003:
…First off, it became increasingly apparent yesterday that Meridjet’s reassurances Saturday night sounded rote because they were. In fact, that was all he said to me. Reassurance x3, sex, sleep. It took a while to dawn on me. Sometimes I’m dense. I guess I was just so badly in need of reassurance that I was willing to accept what he held out. In fact, it was just adding to the overall Work process.
After last night’s hard processing (Sorry for the constant use of that word, but that’s
I noticed yesterday that my posts with cuts (or at least the most recent one) seem to hit the RSS feed without a link, so goody for you folks reading the feed, I guess. But I am still using a cut tag here, because it allows me to pretend there’s something like security on this post, which in turn allows me to lower the overall embarrassment effect when I think of people seeing this. 
My sleep schedule is completely wonky right now, so I got up at 2:30 a.m. (It’s now 5:09 a.m.) I could probably sleep pretty easily again, but I slept nearly 10 hours, so I’m going to piddle around with the site a little bit before giving in and lying down again. I hope y’all don’t mind putting up with me a while.
This next archival post is from 12 October 2003 and refers to the one I posted yesterday, from 11 October. There’s some redundancy:
“Yesterday Meridjet was mostly silent, and when I could hear him he was still being manipulative and contradicting himself over and over (making it obvious that it was intentional). So I basically stewed in the Process all day, and damn if I could tell if anything
Another quick archival post, that was posted as an addendum to my last post of a few minutes ago.
“Just remembered. After processing dreams ended, I dreamt I went collar shopping. I tried on a metal one made of a bunch of very cool-looking links (variety of maybe four different kinds forming clusters, each link of a different type of metal) and almost got that but decided it was too necklacy. Then I moved on to leather, but all they had were pastels. *laughsnort* I was going for purple when the dream shifted and there were a bunch of zombies or some shit like that wandering around. We had to evacuate. Later there was some sexual aspect which I can’t see clearly now, but I woke up on the verge
Another archival post. Between reading this post and updating the site over the last couple of days with regard to tags and categories, I’m firmly reminded that I still have yet to write the detailed post on doubt I promised a while back. I should probably get a notebook to keep a list of intended subject matter, but right now I have so many lists that I can’t find one for the 80 others piled haphazardly on top of it. To say I need to get better organized is something of an understatement, but there is progress on that front already. This week, alas, has been a sort of bubble of nightmarish worries overtaking regular activity, but if you ignore the last four days, things are moving smoothly along
In a post from 21 August 2003, I was listing things from even further in the past that I had been discussing with Don in chat. A bullet list, as it was posted:
vics (very important clicks)