I Am Psychologically Disturbed

Just a little freaky, is all.

Quote by Jude Law as “Doctor Watson” in 2010′s Sherlock Holmes, and which I use on a page I’m working on. One of the clutter items I’m drowning in is notebooks. Spiral bound, ledger, datebooks, diaries, 3-ring binders of various sizes, and so on. I have stacks of notebooks, either blank, full, or with various Continue reading →

The Experience of Avatar

I will probably cry during the writing of this post. Possibly more than once. I’m just saying. Sunday when I came out of the theater as everyone else visited the restrooms, I started crying (again), hyperventilating a little and fighting to regain control of myself as people passed me entering and leaving the theater. This Continue reading →

A Break, For a Dream

My birds were being so loud for so long that I had to take an Ativan. Sheesh. Now I have headphones on so as to gain some control over what noise I’m exposed to. It reminded me of my dream this morning. The dream seemed important so I want to make a record of it. Continue reading →

Meridjet is Dreamwalking Again

Night before last, Meridjet performed his first dreamwalk in nearly two years. My friend Caliedo dreamt that she was rushing around her house getting ready to go out, and was in a bedroom/living room sort of combo, adjacent to the kitchen. There were a few people in the kitchen, all men she thought, and Meridjet Continue reading →

Quick and Personal

For anyone looking for me for either RTV stuff or Yahoo IM, I’ve been offline almost constantly since finally returning home from evacuation on September 21. First, the cable (internet) was out til I think the 3rd of October. Since then, I’ve been alternately extremely busy, extremely depressed, or feeling physically like shit. Today, it’s Continue reading →

Weird Feelings

In the past couple of weeks, I’ve noticed a number of timely developments in my circumstances that I would call synchronicity if I only had a better handle on it all. I mentioned that I started schema therapy about 6 weeks ago; this has generated a lot of back-burner thought processing and semi-conscious contemplation that, Continue reading →

A Dream of Meridjet — and Donald Tyson

I met Donald Tyson (online) in 1999 when he was writing his book Sexual Alchemy. A friend of mine mentioned the upcoming book to me, so I emailed Don about it, as it was the first time I’d ever heard of anyone else with a spirit companion. He replied, and I was also his first Continue reading →

Collar Me in My Dreams

Another quick archival post, that was posted as an addendum to my last post of a few minutes ago.

“Just remembered. After processing dreams ended, I dreamt I went collar shopping. I tried on a metal one made of a bunch of very cool-looking links (variety of maybe four different kinds forming clusters, each link of a different type of metal) and almost got that but decided it was too necklacy. Then I moved on to leather, but all they had were pastels. *laughsnort* I was going for purple when the dream shifted and there were a bunch of zombies or some shit like that wandering around. We had to evacuate. Later there was some sexual aspect which I can’t see clearly now, but I woke up on the verge

Dream Concepts: Ever Wonder Where They Come From?

Crows and ravens are very meaningful to me.

I am going through the old archives again right now, trying to get some additional material into this blog. I found an interesting dream post, dated 11 August 2003. (I started at the beginning of the archives, which began November of 2002 and remain very sporadic, still, in 2003.) The “Don” in the post is occult author Donald Tyson, who’s a good friend of ours. The post reads:

“Yesterday I wasn’t really having much in the way of contact, but at one point I perceived him standing behind me, playing with my hair. Later as I was chatting with Don, I got kind of achy for Meridjet. This happens when I am without substantial contact for a few days. I said something to Don about being mopey. Last couple of