I am SO tired. I am still trying to get my house decluttered and organized, and arranged in a way that is both functional and aesthetically pleasing. Imagine someone moving all your stuff into half your current space, and putting everything in all the wrong places, all mixed up. Imagine trying to work within the confines of that smaller space and organize it, putting things away where they are used most. It’s a nightmare, but there is progress in spurts and trickles.

I had the living room nicely set up but it wasn’t doing it for me. Worse still was my bedroom, where I’d tried to move everything with personal significance in some wayward attempt to make my living room more “adult.” What it did was make my living room aesthetically meaningless to me (BOOOORING) and my bedroom way too crammed. I then started trying to weed out what wasn’t essential from the bedroom, putting it in boxes for storage, and every time I wanted to sit at my computer desk, I had to move boxes and bags out of the computer area to the bed. Then at bedtime I had to move them back. I fell twice within one week from my feet catching on things.

Then I brought in the enormous corner cabinet that Jesi and I picked out on “as is” sale at Ikea in 2007 (paid for by my mother). I moved it into the corner of the living room and put my computer in it. Got it all set up, and then realized that the keyboard tray was as high as my kitchen table. Who the fuck types that high up? My arms don’t like it one bit. And in the course of the last week, we were blessed with four boxes of clothes that can fit my daughter, which we desperately needed, along with a bunch of stuff my mother brought over — everything from a six-disc cd changer to a bunch of berries like you’d use on a wreath, which I’ll use for my next Art League project. But this amounted to about 8 boxes in an already crowded apartment, plus we have all the Halloween stuff in boxes, and boom, I was unable to move in my it-was-clean-yesterday living room. I got really discouraged.

So today I cleaned out the big shipping container shed we have and rearranged it, creating room to put some stuff in so I can have room to move in the house. I rearranged my living room and we went through the four boxes of clothes. I still have to clean out the closet of clothes we don’t want to make room for them, but this was a lot done today and I feel better. I’m also completely exhausted.

Due to Halloween concerns (we went to a costume party and it was a major undertaking), I haven’t worked on the book I’m supposed to be editing. So that’s pressing hard on me. I also have another issue of Rending the Veil to edit and put together by the end of the month. I’ve been prodded by a concerned contributor regarding the not-yet-restored archives — we’ll have been at the new site for a year by Yule, and I’ve only restored two issues. Bad Sheta. And then there’s my long-suffering book, always shoved aside for other things that need to be done.

It’s a good thing that I’m making actual progress nowadays, though. At least I’m confident it’ll all get done, and I’m working very hard to make sure of it. I have friends who care and who help me. I am blessed. Oh, and I drank absinthe for the first time (and then every night for about 5 days) over Halloween. Woot!

4 Responses to “Ugh-thud”

1. Sarenth says:

   9 November 2009 at 05:27

   Wow! You’ve been damned busy….but you’ve been making good progress.

   I would definitely be whipped if I did all that too…I hope you had a great Samhain/Halloween, and I am curious how the absinthe was.

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   • sheta says:

     9 November 2009 at 15:45

     I will try to find time to write a more detailed post on my absinthe experience, though I haven’t taken it to the heights yet that I would like to. Experimentally speaking, you know.

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2. Hummingbird says:

   9 November 2009 at 08:40

   Just remember the rewards of all the really hard work you are doing. If you stay focused and tackle one thing at a time you will get to a point eventually where everything flows. Hang in there and make your book a big priority. I am so glad you have good friends!!! I’ll have to try this new drink.

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   • sheta says:

     9 November 2009 at 15:48

     I keep getting to clean spots and then they seem to revert to the old mess and it discourages me, but what’s really happening is that they’re temporarily messy while I am making the next phase of adjustments. There will probably be several more of those new messes before it’s all finished, but they themselves are signs of progress — though it can be hard to remember that!

     Yes, we must all try more absinthe. Mwa ha ha.

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