Comments on: Things Are Definitely Moving

By: Soli

Soli — Thu, 30 Apr 2009 12:43:20 +0000

Well, I haven’t seen anything boring or repetitive of yet, but I know my lj has been full of it lately. (so glad that’s almost over!)

About the friend, ugh. Though who knows if she was aware, sometimes people can have some weird tunnel vision regarding them own behavior.

and now for me to get my stuff together to finish my class work.

By: Alanora

Alanora — Thu, 30 Apr 2009 05:45:51 +0000

Man, it’s been a rough couple of months for you. I do hope it all smooths out soon, so sanity’s sake. While keeping busy is a good thing, keeping too busy will wear you too thin and eventually cause bad stress. Just don’t overdo it, okay?

By: sheta

sheta — Thu, 30 Apr 2009 03:53:00 +0000

Ha ha. See other comment. I have other boundaries to draw and power to reclaim wrt my family, but don’t feel worthy of doing so until I reach some sort of recognizable (to them) “success.” I may never accomplish that, because our definitions of what’s important don’t match well. So yeah… stressing over etc. as you said. Therapy helps me realize stuff.

Have I posted boring, repetitive content at times before?

You should hear about the friend I said goodbye to. It broke my heart… so bad. But she was given a whopping four years worth of patient waiting and allowing her space, no pressure, and in the end it was something she said in her blog about being pushed away by a guy she liked that woke me up to the fact that not only was she doing the same to me (which I knew), but clearly knew how it must feel and didn’t care. I still mourn her, but mostly because I’m still suffering the pain and confusion of not understanding why it all started. Gah. Shut up, Sheta.

By: sheta

sheta — Thu, 30 Apr 2009 03:39:56 +0000

Yeah. I need to do a post detailing all this, for the benefit of my family (who may or may not read it), because they seriously assume that 1) I have loads and loads of free time because I don’t have a “real job” and so much has gone undone for a couple of years with regard to the house and yard, and 2) my work on RTV, the book, or anything else that isn’t turning a buck is not worthy of my time or their respect. I’m seriously disturbed by what I’ve been hearing through the family grapevine regarding what people say about me behind my back.

I vacillate between whining that I’ll never measure up, no matter what, and throwing a tantrum because they dare to disdain my work while everything they do is the model of societal perfection. Grr.

By: sheta

sheta — Thu, 30 Apr 2009 03:34:54 +0000

Thanks!

By: Soli

Soli — Thu, 30 Apr 2009 02:12:15 +0000

Hey, look at it this way. You could have spent a month posting mostly about the same thing in different variations. or spent your month doing busy work and stressing out over someone who should not have any sort of authority. (what, me bitchy? )

By: Lavanah

Lavanah — Wed, 29 Apr 2009 13:06:26 +0000

I wouldn’t worry too much about not blogging consistantly this month, it seems to have just been the energy. I have had moments of wondering whether I was ever going to find the way or will or words to ever blog again. But maybe it was just the Venus rx finally going direct? And we are all (in our own ways) working our our relationships to our immediate and physical environments? You are getting your home environment together, you are working on your book, yourself AND RTV-that really is alot, Sheta!

By: Kat

Kat — Wed, 29 Apr 2009 02:58:06 +0000

We’ll be thinking of you. I will send some blessings your way. Hope it all works out.

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