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OMFG
20th December 2008 6:15 ∞ Astrology, Meridjet, Ordeal work, Synchronicity, Validation, Wow! ∞ ∞ RSS 2.0
I didn’t plan to post tonight (hey, it’s still dark…), but this was too intense. First of all, let me thank those who commented to my last post. I’ll answer tomorrow. I was away today, but it’s been decided that Rending the Veil will go on hiatus after the Yule issue, until I can get caught up.
Now for the OMG bit. Back when Tracey and I first did Meridjet’s and my chart (don’t ask how I know his birth data), we had a trine or something between one person’s Pluto and the other person’s Venus. I can’t remember who was which. But I’ve installed my astrology software on this machine, finally, and run our charts again, and the trine is gone. Just… gone. I’ve updated my own birth time, which was 30 minutes off, but even the old data doesn’t show this trine. However, it does show a conjunction of my moon and his Pluto, which I don’t remember seeing, in the 12th house. Look at this:
His side says:
This is a very powerful influence on an emotional and psychological level. Being with you strengthens and exacerbates the latent tendency Sheta probably has for gruelling emotional autopsies and exhausting outbursts of feeling. You are unnerved by the depth and intensity of her inner life and subconsciously respond by trying to control or manipulate her. Your relationship swings from a deep intimacy with intense erotic overtones to an ice-cold remoteness in which all love seems long-gone. Dealing with these extremes ultimately brings psychological growth and insight, though the cost may be high. At times of crisis there is a tendency to put everything you have built up together at risk, especially through ultimatums designed to ensure her complete capitulation. The desire to assume the role of therapist must be assiduously avoided – leave that to an expert.
You may feel that Sheta needs a complete emotional overhaul and that this may pull the rug out from under you. It’s probably best for you to cultivate a certain detachment.
My side says:
Though not a major factor in your relationship this influence will manifest itself at times of crisis. Your latent tendency, to interpret as a fatal rejection other people’s detachment, is exacerbated by Meridjet. When you make an emotional scene – which you often do because you can’t work out what he is feeling – he will react in a cool and controlled manner, perhaps probing your motivations in what seems to be an unfeeling way. When ultimatums fly through the air he is unmoved and appears willing to abandon you. Emotional scenes are therefore best avoided – they lead only to exhaustion. Avoid practicing therapy on each other. Being with him violently purges you of past negative influences but can lead you without a stable emotional foundations.
Any immature expression of emotions on your part awakens cruel tendencies in your partner. Do not expect to be coddled here.
Hooooly sheepshit. It didn’t just peg us, it nailed our asses to the wall. Since I don’t believe in coincidence, particularly of the “this was never here and now it is, while that which was here is now gone” variety, I have to wonder why this is coming up now. He’s been much gentler with me, and I’ve had different reactions to the old familiar pain than I’ve ever had before. It is very intriguing, and even a little exciting.
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The astrology software is very interesting. Would there be a possibility that you would be willing to run my data and the data of the ghostly fellow that I wrote the book with through it? I’d be happy to pay you for your trouble. I have charts for both of us, but unfortunately I don’t know anything about astrology except the basics. Heck, this could be another service for you to offer! You can email me and let me know what you think.
lily@lilystrange.com
Wow! That is really cool. From what I know of you guys it sounds right on to me too.
My dad is an astrologer so I always get him to do my chart hehehe.
@Lily: You bet! There’s even a button in my sidebar. lol. I did email you, hope you got it.
@Aydira: He can be such a bastard. Seriously. But I have the luxury of knowing him to levels that physical people can’t really share — empathy, telepathy, etc have that effect. I’m sure that makes it easier for me to keep the faith, but in the heat of the moment I do suffer. And I think he wants me to rail at him. He wants me to reclaim my power, and all that shit.
How can him pissing me off make me love him more? *boggle*
Yeah, Jared and I have the empathy/telepathy and so on. And I still get upset with him a lot haha. He can cut me without even saying anything. But eventually I realize that he was right in most cases. But boy does it hurt in the moment.
Ok, well honestly he hasn’t been wrong on anything for me yet hahaha. I wish I could somehow get a chart for him but since he’s never incarnated here I guess I’m out of luck.