I Got Fitted
I got fitted for a bra today. I've lost weight and I was having the world’s worst time trying to find one that fit. So I went to Lane Bryant (the store for cool & trendy fat chick clothes) and got a free fitting. The verdict? Are you sitting down? ...
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April 29, 2008
I’ve Signed Up with PayPerPost
I mentioned in my last entry that I was going to be taking on some paid posts to supplement my currently pathetic income. Since I can’t survive without assistance right now, it’s a necessary development. As I also mentioned, I pledge to be honest in my reviews of these services, ...
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April 26, 2008
Notice Regarding RTV and Other Stuff
In recent weeks, my personal life has been very stressful. This includes reaching a critical period in food vs starvation, food rationing and so forth. I've been in eat-once-every-two-days mode for a while; the one time I had an abundance of food my body went into OMG-MUST-EAT and I was ...
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April 24, 2008
Expansion of Intent
Things are busy around here for the next few days. I’ve got to get the next issue of Rending the Veil done, I’m profoundly behind on my domestic duties, there’s a therapist appointment and a need to buy groceries, and I’ve received a new editing assignment from Immanion Press. So ...
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April 23, 2008
Sob Story, Move Along
Because I’m feeling a little whiny, and because I want to try out the Wordpress 2.5 gallery feature, I’m going to share with you the pathetic state of my pantry. I wrote an email to my mom, earlier: My cupboards are seriously bare. I’m down to odd bits like jello, margarine, ...
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April 22, 2008
Faux Pas of the Written Word, or Please Don’t Mar the Grammar
I suppose it was inevitable. I’m an editor by preferred trade, stemming from a natural capacity for grammatical snobbery. This evening as I surfed EntreCards, I happened upon a post on grammatical pet peeves, rekindling my own irritation toward a number of written mistakes. Bluntly put, certain errors of written ...
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April 21, 2008
Hope is Within You
Once in a while I receive an email from someone seeking my help or Meridjet’s help with problems and issues that I’m not remotely qualified for. Often, these people are already in counseling or other treatment that provide them the tools they need to solve things on their own. But ...
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April 20, 2008
Astral Plane and Food Offerings
Okay, I had to stay and show you this one. It brings up several practices that might affect those with spirit companions, and other folks will find interesting as well. From 22 October 2003: Last night, we replayed first meeting again. I was having a hard time perceiving him on any ...
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April 20, 2008
Channel a Letter, Sheta
Raiding the archives for tasty bits, again. I’m in the midst of preparing the Beltane issue of Rending the Veil, so most of my attention is otherwhere this weekend (and will be in the week to come). However, due to the boooooring blogger-focused crap I’ve been posting lately, I felt ...
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April 20, 2008
Attention Bloggers! Increase Your Rank Here!
If you would like to increase traffic to your blog and improve your Alexa rank, I’ve got a proposition for you. You know the little mini banners that blog directories make you post on your blog in order to be listed? If you don't have one for your own site, ...
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April 17, 2008
Meridjet’s Use of the Process
As promised, I’m posting some archival stuff since InsaneJournal is loading (albeit slowly). I’m going to put in a few excerpts in an attempt to create a progression because it’s been a while since my last set of archival posts. From 13 October 2003: …First off, it became increasingly apparent yesterday that ...
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April 16, 2008
WTF is the Blog Awards Challenge?
There’s a new site and blogging contest called “Blog Awards Challenge,” based on the internet-age-old practice of supplying writing prompts, or challenges, for community-wide use. On LiveJournal, there are several communities that do this, particularly those given over to “muses.’ Muses are typically roleplay characters modeled after characters from books, ...
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April 16, 2008
Personal Inventory
Today’s been a busy day, full of a wide range of information both good and bad. My thoughts are largely inarticulate, but my energy level is sub-par so I’m sure that’s why. Best news of the day: Confirmed that my daughter’s Social Security disability has been approved. No word yet ...
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April 16, 2008
Stuff to write
Note to self -- write about Letting go Doubt Thelema, by request Also to do: Create dream database
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April 15, 2008
Spiders Stay Outside
I intended to complete yesterday’s post, but other things got in the way and it’ll just have to wait. I am no longer quite focused in that direction. Meridjet has grown quiet over the last couple of days, though not completely silent. Last night I had dreams from which I ...
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April 14, 2008
Teaser Memory
Perhaps it hasn’t been readily apparent in this blog recently, but I’m very much an optimist. I have always been a live-in-the-moment type of person, and while that can get me into trouble financially due to not thinking ahead, it does a world of good for my peace of mind. ...
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April 13, 2008
Investment in Attachments
I think this is going to be a defining year in my life. I hope that good things are in store, but given that the year kicked off with some challenging events, I am certain that 2008 will contain a good deal of soul-searching. I need to take personal inventory ...
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April 13, 2008
Worst of Both Worlds
“Let’s see what we can fuck with next!” — Eddie Murphy as “Reggie Hammond” in 48 Hours. I lost 4 subscribers overnight Wednesday night. I’m gonna go out on a limb here and speculate that they left due to my mentioning in my most recent post that I was bipolar. “OMG!” ...
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April 11, 2008
Multi-tasking? More Like Juggling Cobras
I met my new therapist today. He’s the first therapist I’ve had since 1995. I have had a total of three in my life, and two of them were bad experiences. The last one was fantastic. The psychotherapist I met today, Dr. T, seemed to be open-minded enough. I told ...
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April 9, 2008
Historical Recollections, and Fear
I haven’t slept much in the past few days. I wake up within a few hours of going to bed and am unable to go back to sleep. It hasn't been so bad – I’ve been getting around six hours sleep a day – until this morning. This morning, I ...
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April 9, 2008
Decluttering Your Blog Site
As I was Entrecard hopping today, I happened across a site where the top post was describing why it’s a good idea to de-clutter your blog. I knew mine was in need of it, particularly since I spent about half of the time of the last two weeks adding my ...
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April 7, 2008
Spirits are Morally Ambiguous
Today, as I slept, there was discussion on the spirit companion yahoogroup regarding spirits, lying, and teaching lessons. One member described how her SC tests her by teaching her hard, painful lessons, and other members chipped in to opine that ‘good’ spirits would never lie or do anything to hurt ...
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April 6, 2008
Health TMI - Endometrial Hyperplasia
A while back, I discussed a trend of weird, random health issues with my aunt (she’s my age), who is a very smart cardiac nurse. She’s probably smarter than most general practitioners. She felt that the problems I’d been developing over the last three or four years could be summed ...
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April 5, 2008
Art Idea - Spirit Portraits
In my ongoing effort to turn this blog into my primary journal, I give you some non-SC-related information. :) I mentioned a month ago that my roommate moved out and for various reasons, I was left with the full share of the bills. I had to borrow money to pay ...
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April 4, 2008
Gushy, Whiny, Embarrassing Mess
This is one of many formerly private letters I wrote to Meridjet over the years. Don’t read it if you’re easily discomfited by gushing or whining or anything overly emotional, because this makes even me cringe and hide my head under a pillow. :-P Hence, another non-helpful cut tag. This ...
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April 4, 2008
Archives: Processing and Pain
I noticed yesterday that my posts with cuts (or at least the most recent one) seem to hit the RSS feed without a link, so goody for you folks reading the feed, I guess. But I am still using a cut tag here, because it allows me to pretend there’s ...
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April 4, 2008
Continuance and Some Explanation
My sleep schedule is completely wonky right now, so I got up at 2:30 a.m. (It’s now 5:09 a.m.) I could probably sleep pretty easily again, but I slept nearly 10 hours, so I’m going to piddle around with the site a little bit before giving in and lying down ...
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April 4, 2008
A.P. - Meridjet Manipulation
In an archival post from 11 October, 2003, I refer to Meridjet’s methods of manipulating my emotions for the purpose of helping me see things. I refer to this as “Processing.” I started out referring to the processes of discovery via his manipulation and guidance, and gradually the word became ...
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April 3, 2008
Archival Post - Kinky
This one is a little more kink information than I’ve ever put out here publicly, so you’ll have to click the cut link if you want to read it. :)
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